Leave Me the HELL ALONE

I remember the password you crazy bitch. Stop spamming me!!!!!

I have just been violated!

I had a physical today and I swear the doctor DIDN'T WEAR A GLOVE! I can't be sure due to the turning my head and coughing, but I don't remember hearing the distinct sound of rubber gloves being put on or taken off.

My day just keeps getting better. I'm getting my pupils dialated in an hour and 45 minutes. I have to make a roster for 56 people, icnluding SSN's and race CODES among other crap. This spreadsheet is forever long. It's one of those that is so long they have to make it so the names stay in one spot and the rest of the spreadsheet scrolls. Yeah, fun times.

Sigh

I feel really depressed. Things just don't seem to be going my way. Ever since we got a new BG things have been crappy for me. The guy treats me like shit. I don't have anywhere near the same flexibility I used to have, everything has to be done his way. Any variation from what he wants and I receive a barrage of verbal abuse. I’ve never felt so underappreciated in my entire life. Leave it to someone that should have been kicked-out for being overweight and not getting promoted in the last whom-knows-how-many-years to really make you feel like shit. All of my morale and confidence is destroyed. I don’t even want to be at work right now. I want to go home, get in bed, and cry. The last time I felt like this was five years ago. At that point, someone looked at me and said hi, and I cried my eyes out. I was 18 then, but it was still an embarrassing situation.

I’ll be 23 this year, where do the years go?

Once again I had an inbox full of Christian/Catholic oriented mail. I really wonder when my family is going to understand that I don’t believe in the Christian god? I’ve been following Wicca for about 10 years now and they just don’t get it. Sometimes I get this twang of guilt, something that makes me wish I could believe like they do, but there are too many holes in the bible and too many things that don’t make sense.

The 21st was Ostara (Spring Equinox). I didn’t do anything. That could be part of my depression. Beltain is coming up soon. I can’t wait, because we’ll do Beltain in the Park. I love when we get together in an open space and practice in public. It’s about time we showed off a little to the Christians; let them know they can’t push us in to “the broom closet” anymore.